congenital, and never acquired by the individual. I know positively
that I was never spanked; that my masochistic ideas were manifested
from my earliest youth; and that, as long as I have been capable of
thinking, I have had such thoughts. If the origin of them had been the
result of a particular event, especially of a beating, I should
certainly not have forgotten it. It is characteristic that the ideas
were present before there was any libido. At that time the ideas were
absolutely sexless. I remember that, when a boy, it affected (not to
say excited) me intensely when an older boy addressed me in the second
person (_Du_), while I spoke to him in the third (_Sie_). I would keep
up a conversation with him, and have the exchange of address take
place as often as possible. Later, when I had become more mature
sexually, such things affected me only when they occurred with a
married woman, and one relatively old.